ALONE

I have been neglecting my readers...my responsibilities. No excuses. I have just been going through a rough patch.

You know how it is when you gas yourself up into believing someone or some people love you just because you love them and take great pains to see that they know you do...only to find that as far as they're concerned, you're just another means to an end.

That sucks.

Particularly since all the signs are there...YOU refused to pay attention to them....so as a result you only see what you WANT to see...not necessarily what is the truth.

I campaign that 'just because someone does not love you the way you want them to does not mean they do not love you', but then i also believe in showing people you care about that you care...don't leave them guessing. It's just not fair!

And i imagine that after i die a lot of people would be giving accolades about how much i mattered to them and all that jack...and i probably would be chilling with Lord Jesus (i seriously pray) looking down with an incredulous look on my face like...and He would say...'YOU DIDN'T KNOW, ABI?'
In case you didn't know...He speaks broken too.

I know it ultimately does not matter whether people appreciate you or not...just keep being you; i mean look at the life of Jesus...but damn, it does get to you sometimes no matter how thick your skin is. And sometimes, you just want to give up...just lie down and die...just ....GO.

But you can't. So you bear up under the pressure...plant your feet firmly and MOVE ON. And always remember to show love to everyone...even if they don't love you back.

To all my fans...thanks for being there. I love you!!!!!

And yeah...I'M BACK.